This afternoon after my daughter went out to play with the neighbourhood kids, I had a cry. It was the best cry I've ever had in my life and it is all down to the song in the youtube video clip above. Home by Depeche Mode. I haven't listened to this song in years (despite Depeche Mode being among my Holy Trinity of favourite bands).
My daughter and I had just returned home from a bit of a shop at the local shops and haircuts (and me a hair colour and foils for the first time in an age!). We played a few games of Uno before she asked if we could singalong to some songs we like - a bit of a retrospective of songs she has known for a few years. We played Big Jet Plane by Angus & Julia Stone - a family favourite on road trips to Byron Bay, and sang along. I played her Light Surrounding You by Evermore which I used to sing to her when she was a baby. My daughter really does have a light surrounding her. She brings that with her everywhere she goes - an infectious bubble of smiles, energy and entertainment to everyone near us. We then listened to Electric Feel by MGMT which we would play in the car when she was a toddler and she'd bob her head and groove along too. Happy memories re-lived. I suggested that I play a song by one of my favourites which she probably hasn't heard because I only listen to music when I'm going to and from work usually. I played her Behind the Wheel by Depeche Mode. After that, she headed out to play with her friends and I scrolled through Spotify to see what other Depeche Mode songs I wanted to listen to. I came to Home and that's when the tears flowed.
The last 5 years have brought many changes, readjustments, settling in periods, healing and expansion to bigger horizons for my family and I. Relocating to Brisbane (my husband's home town), new jobs, husband starting his own business, us establishing new friendships and some semblance of a social life. This move provided the stability, downturn in social life and change in lifestyle to realise my own dreams, the acceptance of self and making way for a life path of creative expression whilst also holding down a day job.
The tears fell and they were for complete and utter gratitude for the family that I have, what we have built for ourselves, the challenges, the reward and the peace and stillness I feel about finally and truly embodying the real me. I know for sure that I haven't felt this way before. It is all coming together. I have never been so bloody happy in my whole life.
And I thank you for bringing me here
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