Last night I had the absolute pleasure and thrill to be in the company of 100+ mighty fine women to see the luminous spiritual activist, Gabby Bernstein in action.
There were so many moments where the whole room united. A true leader and visionary knows how to bring people together and have the whole room trust that limitless possibilities are available to every single one of us. We started the evening with some breathwork to get us grounded and focused, followed by Gabby's talk, Q&A, delicious chant to the music of Jai Jagdeesh, followed by book signing. I'd like to share with you some contemplative writing that came through for me following this wonderful Earth Events evening.
I've described my personal healing journey as a breaking open. The message in this post is as relevant to me today, as it was in August 2014. After last night, I realised that how I define breaking open was not the best description for my experience. Breaking open indicates force, push, pressure, damage, potential harm, negative pain for an outcome. I think Gabby describes it best when she used the words "cracking open". My definition of cracking open is as follows:
It has to come from the inside of your being, your core, your soul that wears a human skin where desire resides. All the determination & strength you can embody to not sit back and simply exist with what life has thrown at you, but to instead allow the cracking to occur (regardless of how many times you are at breaking point). To be open to receiving something better than what you've settled for, or the slim pickings of what you thought was ok for you to accept. The cracking open allows the entrance of the abundance and joy that life has to offer us all.
I took a risk tonight. Despite launching the first of what I hope will be many in-person workshops this week - the first stage of my transition to a new career pathway, I am freaking scared and excited. I am also daunted by stepping out and up, which is where I want to go and where I know my true path lies. I have learned so much about myself over the past 2 years. I have called bullshit on settling, I have made mindful decisions and choices, I have healed, taken action and opened up for the first time ever and talked about my feelings a lot.
Tonight I went to see Gabby Bernstein speak here in Brisbane. I hadn't planned on asking a question during Q&A time, but once I realised I had one, I pretty much had an internal freak out, tummy did bunny hops, heart pounded, throat became dry. I was at a crossroads - do I leave it and risk going away with the question choking up my throat chakra? Or do I verbalise and risk my voice shaking?
I took a chance and asked my question. My voice shook like crazy. Exposing my vulnerable self with a question in front of 100+ people. I spoke my truth, I asked for guidance and Gabby delivered. I still have to absorb the moment, the answer, the whole evening and once I have digested and pondered over it, I'll come back with more details. I want to teach and mentor. This means standing up and speaking my truth, and sharing my journey with people I don't know. I know I can do it, and I will do it with conviction and heart, soul and tears. But I wonder if I am ready if my voice shook as it did in front of a full room of people, when all I did was ask a question.
My heart and soul has been telling me I'm ready in the past few months, and it tells the truth, right? This I know but...
I can see I have made huge leaps and bounds in healing and awakening these past few years, I know I have. But why is it that, I feel like where I am going is an even steeper road yet I have these crazy visualisations/flashes of the future that sneak in and show me speaking confidently in front of numbers I can't even comprehend right now?
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