The past few months have been challenging hence the deathly quiet on my blog. I have been struggling, fear filled and just trying to get through each day. Scared that people who don't really know me will see the facade that I have held like a shield for far too long.
Some good things happened in the past 2 months:
My Birdy by Night painting was featured in Brave Girls Club Daily Truths. It will be available for sale in my Etsy shop this week. See it here: http://bravegirlsclub.com/dailytruths/mar2013.htm
My handmade jewellery is showcased at the Bleeding Heart Gallery here in Brisbane.
I began studying goldsmithing at The Goldsmiths' School and have completed 2 projects so far - a ring and a pendant.
I had a wonderful time in Byron Bay with my family to celebrate my brother in law's 40th.
I am working at my online shop with the help of Jess Van Den's Set Up Shop class: http://www.createandthrive.com/set-up-shop
During all these happy and enjoyable things I was battling with myself. I have battled for 20+ years with demons. Alone. I'm not talking about Buffy the Vampire Slayer demons. No, that would be Easy. I'm talking about inner demons, past memories and dust you sweep under the carpet demons. I finally decided enough was enough, because I believe that to be truly Happy, you have to be Happy to your very core, not just the smile you plaster on your face as though life is wonderful and you have no challenges, no problems, no fears. Life is Challenging. This anxiety, all the symptoms and unresolved feelings have arisen right now to test me, to help me move on and lead me towards that Happy life I deserve. This is the blog post that broke me open, the catalyst for me: http://theeverygirl.com/feature/im-an-everygirl-and-i-suffer-from-anxiety/
A few weeks ago I reached out, I'm talking about it FINALLY, I have wonderful support and I just know I can get through this. I'm not going to be ashamed anymore, because I know admitting to having a problem is not a weakness, but a strength. It takes guts to admit you need help, it takes guts to reach out and say "Hey, I'm not Wonderwoman".
So what I'm doing is this: talking and not bottling up my feelings or thoughts, seeking professional help, learning & practicing mindfulness, figuring out what serves me and what doesn't, making sure I do all the things I enjoy instead of feeling I don't deserve it, regular exercise to boost my energy levels and taking the time to be in the moment and enjoy all the goodness that is around me. Soon, I will return to yoga and find my centre of peace. I know I can lead that Happy life I want. Happy to the core, that's what I want to be.
Hello, I'm Sharyn: Gutsy Girl Chieftess, Founder of of Gutsy Girl and Gutsy Girls Will Rule The World. I am the Creatrix of Sacred Circle Leadership Training and Gutsy Mantras.
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