Last week I wrote about boundaries, bullies and being done with people who aren't prepared to raise one another to new heights. This week I'm sharing a big lie I've told myself for far too long. Which I'll get to very soon, promise! The tide has turned and many things have happened since last week. I have so much more to say than I had planned. I changed my mind about something which I thought I was so certain about for months. In making that one decision, trusting and putting all my faith in myself & the Universe to bring what I needed for my highest good, and believing that it was the right choice to make for the time being, has brought about unexpected opportunities, blessings, hellos and goodbyes in one form or another. White space ready to be filled with some seriously awesome stuff!!
The biggest lie I've ever told myself is that I am not qualified to do any of the work that I do - from my day job to the workshops and mentoring that form part of the Gutsy Girl offering. It feels like a dirty old confession typing that here in my online space that I am not qualified.
When I was working with my coach last year, and the huge desire to run my own workshops and eventually mentor and coach people came up, I felt I wasn't qualified. Like my personal challenges and painful experiences on life's rollercoaster weren't enough. I told Susana I wanted to do the Beautiful You Coaching Academy (BYCA) course and wondered if that would be enough for me to feel 'enough'.
So for the past 7 months doing the coaching course was always on my mind. Through my workshops and events I've guided 40 people and inadvertently mentored many others wherever I've worked. I genuinely care for people and I want to help. Now 40 is not a huge number, but what I've given has made a difference I think, to those people. Gabby Bernstein's advice to me in January was to start coaching people where I was and not to leap too soon, that she felt that I was going to do the great work I've been led to do, because I've felt the call.
As the numbers filled for BYCA's final intake for 2015, I was really anxious. I thought I really wanted to do the course. I thought it would give me something I lacked and something I needed to feel worthy of being a coach. I was thinking far too much! It got down to 4 places and I was hovering over wanting to take one of those places. I have a very open and honest conversation with my husband about the course and he told me that doing a course isn't what will make you a good coach. Being you and doing your work will. Something in what he said, how he said it and his complete trust and faith in me (which I knew I lacked in myself) triggered something and I made the decision not to enrol in the the course. I felt okay about it. When it was announced that the course was 100% sold out. I didn't feel disappointed. I didn't cry. I didn't feel like I missed out on something. I knew that I could re-visit it again later if I felt strongly compelled to do the course. More white space...
Remember how I said at the beginning that unexpected opportunities came up? Well, I'm a student in Denise Duffield-Thomas' Lucky Bitch Money Bootcamp and for the past number of weeks I've been working on changing my money mindset, creating & manifesting abundance, considering upgrades and adding EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) to my swag of tools and practices. On Wednesday last week went I spoke to my husband about courses and future upgrades like investing in new projects and a website overhaul, I shared with him that there was one thing I would have LOVED to be a part of this year and that was Gabby Bernstein's NYC Spirit Junkies Masterclass Level 1 back in June. I said that I hoped Gabby would come to Australia and do this training next year. I was really, really excited about it.
On Thursday night, hours after my husband had gone to bed, I checked my email and there was an email from Gabby. She had recorded the entire NYC masterclass and Spirit Junkies Masterclass Level 1 Digital was now open for enrolment. I was ecstatic as you can imagine. I excitedly forwarded the email to my husband so I'd remember to talk to him about it later. After a mentoring session on Friday after my day job, I came home and mentioned the masterclass to my husband and asked if he'd read the email. He said yes, he watched the video, the works. He then went on to say, "When I get paid next week, I'm enrolling you.". As we held one another's gaze and I said 'are you serious?' and he said yes, I cried happy tears, lots of them. Trust and Faith - my two Life Path number lessons were being taught to me by my beloved. I got it Universe. I finally KNEW with all I've got that I must believe in myself, I must trust and I must have faith. So that's my big announcement this week - as of this evening, I'm a Spirit Junkie trainee!
I know I have what it takes to do this work. I know YOU have what it takes to give your dreams a go. To live your purpose. I am doing this work. I hope you will begin yours. If you have already, I'm cheering you on. If you haven't started or if it's early days, it can be done and you have what it takes. You are worth it. I am not my day job (and I'm betting you aren't either!). Don't you think it's time to start believing in you?
My takeaway messages to you (with so much love and white light) are:
Stay tuned for Part 3 next week!
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Hello, I'm Sharyn: Founder of of Gutsy Girl and Gutsy Girls Will Rule The World. I am the Creatrix of Sacred Circle Leadership Training and Gutsy Mantras.
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